Tuesday July 31

A day like any other, of late. I got up when John did at 6 and 6:30 and 7. I got Devlin breakfast and got John off to work. I played a bit with Devlin and got the computer going for him and went back to bed. I sleep this heavy sleep that is full of dreams. I can't believe I am having another child. I switch between elated and terrified. When Devlin is waking me from a lovely dream and I am looking at his beautiful face with one eye full of haze, I think, 'what have I done to myself?'

I went to my OB educator appointment a month early. It was for August 30 not July. The baby is already sucking the brain. My breasts hurt, but still not feeling sick. Do you think having my tiny cut up gut makes for no morning sickness? Or do you think it is just luck of the draw. I am so sure this is a girl that people laugh at me. I don't know why, I was sure Devlin was a boy.

What I am worried about today: Down's Syndrome (saw a girl at the fountain yesterday who's mom was a bit older than me and she had it) They are going to suggest all sorts of tests, but I am not going to have them. It isn't like I am going to abort if I find out the baby does have Down's, but I am still worried.

I am still trying to find out what is going on with Devlin's early Kindergarten entrance thing. I called the school district yesterday... what kind of business ALWAYS goes to voice mail?!